Hello beautiful people. My name is Athol, talking about marriage, relationships and getting what you want from them.
This episode is going to be slightly different in that I’m primarily talking about myself from me to you, seeing today is a fairly emotionally intense day for me. Today is the one year anniversary of my heart attack.
Not that I want to continually define myself as Heart Attack Guy, but it is the one year anniversary. It didn’t send me into a tailspin or a funk, but having had a heart attack it’s always little bit with you. Any time you feel any kind of twinge of pain in your chest, or you go to do something that you can’t quite do anymore, there’s always that little second guessing in your head of maybe you shouldn’t be doing this because this might kill you. Don’t lift that heavy object, because you’re literally going to die.
So it’s with me all the time but it’s just sort of more concentrated today. And because I am doing this daily vlog thing where I produce something every day, this is what’s on my mind. So I don’t know what else I can really do to talk about. This is the thing that’s in my head. I feel like I’m meant to come up with some sort of blindingly intelligent insight as to what it all means, and I’ve tried. I’ve really tried. I really can’t come up with anything too profound. At the end of the day it just sucks, it just sucks. If you have a way of avoiding a heart attack, absolutely avoid the damn heart attack because it sucks.
I mean, I talk about dodging bullets metaphorically, but dodging an actual bullet would have been a whole lot easier in that once that adrenaline rush is gone, five minutes later everything is fine and your life can continue on as it was.
This is a long, slow, steady process of feeling better, and this is the best I’ve felt especially over this last couple of weeks. This is the best I’ve felt in a long time. In that sense the daily vlog thing is working. It is making me feel happier and more productive, so fantastic.
If there’s a lesson to be learned, it’s your whole set of expectations, your hopes and dreams and the things you want to do and value, they all sort of start slipping lower and lower on the list of Maslow’s Hierarchy of Needs. You’re not worried about what clothes you particularly wear, or the things you need to do, or want to do, or the vacations you want to take. All you think is I’ve got to get my kids through college. If I die my wife has to be taken care of. If I’m not here any more will people still be able to access my knowledge and wisdom. What courses and books are there that they can use? What are the tools they can use? And honestly I just like being alive. Being alive is great, it’s fun. The world is a fantastic place. I know there are bad things that happen and crappy things that happen, but overall this shot that we get at being alive is amazing and wondrous and every minute has something for you.
I’ve thought a lot, well not a lot a lot, but some today about that I miss my Dad. He passed away in 2010. We knew it was coming, it wasn’t a great surprise or anything like that but I really miss him. I don’t want to visit that sense of loss on my wife and my daughters until it really needs to be that time. I would much rather visit that on my wife when she’s in her 70s instead of her 40s and my kids when they’re in their 50s instead of late teens early 20s. So yeah, being alive is wonderful and some things suck, but you always have the ability to make them better. You do what you can and you focus on what you can do, rather than what you can’t do, and you sort your life out as best you can and you make things better.
I’ll make the same promise to you the people watching, that I made to my wife the first day in ICU when I was coming out from under anesthesia and all that sort of stuff. I promised that this would not be the end of the story. This would not be the end, this would not be even necessarily the beginning of the end, but there was more life to come, more things to come. More videos to come. More books to come. More tools, more products, more things that will come.It’s just a case of getting from point A to point B to C to D and doing what I can. Doing the best I can from where I am.
So like I say I don’t have any great magical insight. It’s just going to be a lot of one foot in front of the other and enjoying the process, not necessarily knowing exactly where the destination is, but hoping it’s a better place than where I am today, and a better place the day after that.
And no matter your situation you can do the same. If I can do this, you can do whatever it is that you’re facing and I hope you get to make happen whatever you want do. I hope that whatever the situation you’re in is not the end of your story. I’ll do my thing, you’ll do your thing, and let me know how things go.
I would love to hear your stories, your successes, your failures. The ways that you made a difference from what you are watching or what you’ve read. That’s valuable things for me. So one foot in front of the other. Don’t stop. It’s not the end of the story. Keep on keeping on.
And that’s about it. Like, share, subscribe, and please do subscribe on YouTube. That is pretty much my home base in terms of what I’m planning to build for, so YouTube subscriptions are huge.
And I will talk to you tomorrow.